What if the ended love is not forgotten?



Today I wonder about love and whether one will ever get rid of the old one completely. No matter how you want to. Would decide and rumble.

I left for Asia eight years ago. So I wouldn’t run into a former relationship, ended in love for almost a year.

Far away I learned to leave the sad behind me, and it faded and faded thinner and smaller month by month. Got the distance and forgot.

Then, on my return flight home, I sat by the window seat and watched the approaching city and its lights. I noticed that I was surprised as quickly as a night flight from Singapore to Helsinki.

Suddenly I missed the most when I was returning home, seat belt fastened and ready to land. When the runway was already visible, I remembered the old one again. Fear raised his head and heart rate again. I thought my trip had been in vain. I was terrified.

Love didn’t end, even as I traveled to the ends of the earth to forget and wipe out the old. Of course. Of course, it did not disappear from the force of atmospheric pressure at an altitude of ten thousand meters.

A week ago, I walked past a crowd past a man who was once half my life and realized that love just had to be accepted. It must be carried with you. Despite the fact that there would be a new one that would make the old no longer a beautiful memory. That new one would still never destroy the memory.

Whether it’s love or anything else let go, you can’t escape yourself even if you fly to the ends of the world. No burden can be left to the garbage islands of foreign cities, forgotten there and returned empty-handed.

I realized I wouldn’t run away from things, but I had the power to approach them the way I would decide for myself. I would carry them with me as lightly as I would like. I would make the memories as beautiful and distant as I would like. And then I would focus on building new ones.

Ps. Today I dared to admit that I might still love. But what then, I thought. At least I can love. And suddenly there was nothing scary about it anymore.